I have a hard time taking pictures when I'm pregnant, since honestly, I really don't want to remember what it feels like to be pregnant. I figure that if I'm going to add a few more children to our family, I need to forget
in between pregnancies just how sick I am
during the pregnancies. Now that I'm just about in my 3rd trimester, I am definitely having decent days, but there is always a period in every day where my body reminds me why I am unable to eat what I really want and exercise the way I'd love to. I guess the best way to describe it is a constant, underlying feeling of ick.
With Elise, I didn't start to feel like myself again
at all until about 4 days
after she was born. The doc told me that with my HCG and progesterone levels being so high, it didn't surprise him that it took that long for them to level off after she was born.At least this pregnancy isn't as bad as my pregnancy with Elise.
Of course I am grateful to be pregnant and to have the opportunity to bring a son into my family. (I wouldn't put myself through this if I wasn't.) But that feeling of gratitude really gets overshadowed every time I find myself laying next to the toilet on the bathroom floor, nauseated on my couch, or when I sit and look at my meal, wondering which food will be the least offensive to my stomach. It wouldn't be so bad if this lasted only a week or two, or even a month . . . but the whole 9 months?! Seriously body, what did I do to you to merit this vengeance? The one benefit is that my pregnancy makes the newborn, up-all-night stage feel like a piece of cake.
Anyway, the point of all this ranting is to explain why I avoid taking a lot of pregnancy pictures.
But, for posterity's sake, and for the baby book I plan on making Jaxon, I figured I'd better start taking a few shots before he makes his appearance. So here I am, 6 months along with the little Jax man:
For the record, I really am so grateful to be pregnant and am so excited to meet my baby Jax Man, I just needed to vent for a minute. Sorry about that- but I do feel a little better now. I promise my future posts won't be like this one :0)